Thursday, April 21, 2005

Patience

It's raining out, and I've just returned from an evening out with friends. Two friends, to be exact. Two friends who happen to be in a relationship. I sat all night watching them kiss and canoodle, glorious in their slightly askew relationship. And as much as I hate to be that pathetic single girl sitting among the coupled, I couldn't help it: Feeling like the odd man out, feeling the distinct sense of miss. Like thirst, but insatiable; There isn't enough water in the world to quench my longing for another half. And I know it may sound a bit desperate, perhaps a bit sad, when I say I want someone with whom to share my time...And if I hadn't had a few glasses of wine, I would probably care. But I have had a few glasses of wine, and I don't care how terribly crestfallen it sounds when I say it made me sullen when the two of them retreated to their shared home and I retreated to my empty Queen-sized bed. As much as I wish I didn't, I really want someone to call my own. I'm in a hurry to find him; Groping for him much like a drowning person would gasp for breath.

They say patience is a virtue, but it is a virtue I do not possess.

9 comments:

Kristi said...

aaaw Laurie!!

i'm so sorry!

I know all to well what you are going thru. There is absolutly nothing i can even say to make it better or help.
just know that you are not alone in your quest. There are others of us out here!

Cyber hugs to you from me!

Take care and sleep well

Nick said...

I had that happen to me last weekend with hanging out with my friend and his wife. It didn't quite feel like desperation but it had a tinge of jealousy of "why can't I find someone to share my life and experiences with?". It sucks, I know. But if they can do it, we can do it too.

Anonymous said...

sis,
don't be jelous that i've been chatting online with babes all day
scorpion

Geekbird said...

Glad you are no longer on the Boutros list. The less you are involved with creepiness the better.

Allen said...

i prayed for mine and do you know what my prayer was? Please god send me a woman who likes oral sex and wants to have a family...it took a little while but we did meet up and are now married...sex is good when we can fit it in and we have triplet boys...sometimes you also have to be careful what you pray for.....

Kiki said...

It's definitely not a virtue I have either:)

freewriter said...

i was pretty much at the same psychological place last night. so there you go, another just like kristi.

Scoot said...

Well let's look on the bright side:
no matter how much you love someone, it is nice to have a bed to yourself now and again. I know you have it all the time, but just consider it that you're stocking up for future relationships!

Laurie said...

It's good to know I'm not alone in my Lonliness-Inspired psychosis.

Thanks everybody. You've made me smile...

:)